So as you my readers know, the female submissive did not work out. Yet is still creating issues in my life. Her and my husband are still good friends. I know that her supposed excuse for never talking to me again is that she cuts all ties with former Dominants. However her immaturity on the way she went about it was wrong. She claimed that she couldn't be friends with anyone that lied to her, yet some of her friends have lied to her in the past, and worse. And yet she still talks to them and trusts them in times of conflict. So if I would have been meaner, or more abusive she might still be talking to me. It saddens me that even though things didn't work out, I treated her with all the respect in the world, and yet she cannot even acknowledge me at a community event we are both at.
Also I have had several blasts from my past resurface. My ex-boyfriend (most recent) and I decided to become civil, as our break up was bullshit. I knew he was not poly from the very start and said "I understand if you find someone else, all you need to do is just let me know". He decided to cheat on me and string me along then break up with me once I was across the country. I have missed him as a friend and was bitter about it because he is beloved by all my close friends back home.
Two of my other exs both want me back but are upset at the fact that I have a boyfriend that is more reliable, and has a better relationship with me. I don't mind staying friends but the current bf should not be all we talk about. So one of them I stopped talking to because he was pissing me off, by solely talking about my current.
So needless to say the past is haunting me and I wish I could just be a bitch about it all to people but my biggest flaw is I tend to be too nice, to damned caring about everyone.
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