Here it goes, my brain will not stop. So things with the three of us is going fairly well. I have finally had sex with my submissive girl which usually takes a while! We are slowly instilling the much needed protocols it is hard to change a frame of mind with someone. But it is happening although it is difficult. She is the most awesome submissive woman I have ever met, hence the consideration/and household membership.
A complication has come about to our happy little household. I was looking for a normal male submissive, for myself. I enjoy Cbt too much to not have one in my household. I met one that is a great once in a while person. Then I met an amazing submissive, he is hot, and shares a lot of my fetishes, and the ones that he doesn't he is willing to try. However I now want to date him, as well as have him serve me so I am not sure how to work that. Also how to I fit him as a bf/sub in? a sub I know where he goes, a bf I know where he goes. a submissive boyfriend?
Well since originally writing this (yesterday) a new bump in the road has come about. Had nothing to do with D/s it has to do with being poly. Again I come across a man that I have great chemistry with I could easily fall for and have slowly been getting attached, that has an issue with the ring on my finger. There is nothing I can do to convince him that things could be wonderful between us whether or not I am married. There is nothing I can do period. It is up to him. Some people think that I am insane for even trying this poly thing, for even worrying about this one guy.
Why is children and an eventual piece of paper such a big deal to some people. Even if I were single the children thing is non-existent. It just hurts cause most people just don't understand that I really can love more than one person at a time because I have enough love to go around. I just don't get it! Why can't I be happy. Yes it is selfish of me to want to have two men that love me unconditionally, and enjoy the joy that a poly relationship could give them. ::sigh::
